The New Moon arrives in the sign of Taurus tomorrow, Monday, May 2 at 11:50p, bringing with it a renewed focus on all things Taurus – stability, security, and basic survival needs (such as food, shelter, clothing, sex, and the like). In combination with the 9 Universal Month that begins today as we move into the month of May, you may find yourself and others around you doing whatever is necessary to get things done to with the goal of securing whatever you perceive to be necessary to live your life and desired lifestyle.
9 is an energy of action with the intention of completing matters. It wants to get things done. Taurus is an earth sign – solid, strong, and stubborn. You may find that the combination of these two energies can be pretty intense. It’s going to get what it wants…and the more you resist it, the more it persists. Taurus 9 energy will stand its ground. It won’t let you give up on
your dreams or goals of security and stability. It continues to bring to your attention all the ways that you are not living the life you desire for yourself, and brings it to your attention again and again and again. It gives you ample opportunity to embrace its offerings.
I can attest to this as I have been in the dreams and goals inquiry myself, assessing the current financial-material-physical circumstances of my life. I’ve been looking at the choices that led me to this point, and considering the choices I get to make now to move forward.
Besides Life By Soul, I have a “day job”. I am thankful to have it because it provides me with a stable paycheck, yet my experience in and knowledge of the field of customer service isn’t fully utilized. I often find myself frustrated that I’m not making as much of a contribution as I could be making there. Despite communicating my desire to make a larger contribution, the powers-that-be simply don’t seem to want what I have to offer.
Yet I find myself laughing at the fact that I care so much. Why? Because I am recognizing that if I were living the life and lifestyle I truly want for myself and my life, I wouldn’t even be in this job!
I’ve realized that at some point, I chose to make the most of my current circumstances because the job gives me a steady and stable paycheck. That stability and security does give me confidence and clarity in other areas of my life. And though I have expressed interest in pursuing a higher position in the company, I’ve found myself wondering if a higher position is what I really want, or if I really just want to prove or be right about what I have to offer. As grateful as I am for what this job provides and affords me, in the bigger picture of what I desire for myself and my life, am I fulfilled and truly happy in this position or in this company? No. Not really.
This job allows and enables me to survive. But I’m finding that it’s not enough for me to survive.
I have the desire to thrive.
I’d rather be focused on growing and evolving Life By Soul, and focus on connecting with and assisting people on their journeys of self-awareness and personal transformation in deep and meaningful ways through this work. And I’d rather be traveling internationally and connecting with the world in tangible and experiential ways through my personal creative, artistic, and athletic interests and ambitions.
Those realizations brought me to the question – how do I get from here to where I want to be?
That question has had me on a journey this last few weeks of looking at how my beliefs about money and material resources and how my self-perception about those elements of my life (my worthiness of them) have affected my choices. I began to see how I’ve often chosen to suffer and struggle, not because I wanted to, but rather because I wanted to prove to others that I was willing to work hard and earn my way. And I noticed that I was continuing this premise of behavior because it is what I had chosen at some point in my life to believe I needed to do – I had not updated my belief system!
With this awareness, I’ve come to recognize that I’ve grown tired of proving myself to others.
I’m now ready to prove myself to myself.
So what do I truly desire my life to be? What would have me be truly happy and fulfilled? What do I truly need to feel safe and secure? What constitutes my personal basic needs? What encourages and supports me in living to thrive rather than simply survive?
With Taurus in the 9th house of my personal chart, my basic needs are driven by the quality of my faith and my belief system. Therefore, my beliefs about basic survival needs and my faith in my own ability to generate or attract what I need to feel safe and secure are what drive my survival instincts. And with Taurus intercepted in the 9th, I perceive the state and condition of my foundational needs as a measure or result of my identity as a person of trust and faith. When my foundational needs are met and stable and secure in their provision, I am confident and feel good about myself, my life ,and my beliefs. My faith in Oneness is strong and resilient. When my foundational needs are shaky and uncertain, I lack confidence and I’m very hard on myself. I doubt my faith and the resilience of my beliefs in the face of challenging circumstances.
In my journey, I’ve been learning to trust that everything really does work out for the best, even if it doesn’t seem like it in the moment. I’ve been learning that my heart’s desires are heard, even if I don’t believe anyone or anything else can hear me. Yet, I’ve also been learning that it is important to ask for my heart’s desires and to take actions in alignment with those desires. If my deepest desires are to be manifest, I must also choose and allow them to be manifest. My thoughts, beliefs, and actions must be in alignment with what my heart also wants for any of it to have any possibility of being tangibly and experientially real for me.
So I ask you:
- Where do your basic survival needs drive you in life?
- Where is your life’s grounding force?
- Where does Taurus reside in your own personal chart?
- And how does Taurus and what interacts with it in your chart affect the
choices you make for yourself and your life to survive and/or thrive?
The answers to those questions and more can be found in “The Know Thyself” package, offered in the Services section of the Life By Soul website. Feel free to contact me for more details.
Enjoy your week. Enjoy the energy of the New Moon and the new month.
And most of all – allow yourself to go for what you desire. Embrace the opportunities that keep trying to come to you. And whatever it is you desire…get it done! It’s a great time to lock in on your dreams and goals for the life of your heart’s desires, and to start on a path of thriving on every level of your life.
~ Light, Love, and Blessings,
Grace
