I’ve had a revelation about Taurus this week.
You see. Taurus has a reputation for being stubborn. VERY stubborn. Often, it’s unwillingness to budge gets a negative interpretation because most non-Taurus people want Taurus to be flexible and change…or rather, to have Taurus give in to their desires or manipulations. People get frustrated by Taurus because Taurus rarely gives in.
Yet after these last few weeks, I’ve come to a new interpretation of that “stubbornness”. In fact, I’ve actually come to admire it.
I am realizing that for Taurus, maybe it’s not a matter of resisting change as it is the recognition that sometimes, it may be better for something to remain (for the most part) the same than to clear it away and start again.
Case in point:
For the few months, I have been having major drama around my cars. Yes. Plural.
I had a well-worn car that was finally showing its wear, and was ‘predictably unpredictable’ in the worst sense. After a particularly trying week in which the battery died, the engine overheated, and the passenger front tire went flat, I made the choice that I would get another car as soon as possible…which I did. I was feeling pretty good about getting rid of the old car, but something was nagging me about the ‘new’ one.
Sure enough, 12 days later, the alternator went out on the ‘new’ car. Two weeks later, the car was leaking power steering fluid. The dealership was great about the alternator, and replaced it free of charge. They also found the leak and repaired it (for now) without charging me for parts, but they did charge me half for labor.
However, the odd part in this adventure is that between the alternator and the steering fluid leak, I found out that the paperwork for the deal was never processed to complete the deal. This left me with a choice.
I could stick with the purchase…or I could walk away from it.
Don’t get me wrong here. I was angry, and I had finally gotten upset about this whole thing enough where I finally gave myself permission to be angry about it, which is a very un-Taurus thing to do. (Note: Taurus is usually very good at keeping their anger in check or under wraps.) Though it was an “as is – no warranty” deal, I definitely felt I got the raw end of that deal with the two major problems the car has had in its first 30 days.
Yet by the time I woke up yesterday morning to go to the dealership to resolve the financing and to pick up the car from service, it dawned on me that it doesn’t matter which used car I purchase – I may face the same problems. I thought about the Major Arcana Tarot card I pulled for the month of Taurus for my newsletter article – the Devil. I realized that maybe it was better for me to stick with “the devil I know” instead of “the devil I don’t”. Why bring on a new set of issues when I already know what has gone wrong and been repaired so far on this car?
So, I chose to sign the deal after all. However, the credit union financing the deal did have the dealership re-draft the paperwork – changing the original April date to yesterday’s date, and waiving my first payment on the car until next month. I also still have the opportunity to renegotiate the financing terms with the credit union at any time.
There was a little change…but most of the agreement remained the same.
As someone with heavy Scorpio energy in my personal chart, it’s my natural inclination to clean slate and start over, or to “die to be reborn”. This experience taught me something about Taurus energy. It taught me that sometimes, destroying everything and starting again from scratch (a.k.a. – the Scorpio way) doesn’t always work. This incident gave me a perspective of balance and the understanding that sticking with what you have isn’t always a bad thing. Just because it may not seem like the best deal for me in the moment doesn’t necessarily mean it’s not good in the long run.
My inner jury is still out for me a little bit with my ‘new’ car. However, I do feel better about knowing what has and hasn’t happened with this car so far. I am actually glad that all of this ugly stuff has come up early in the ownership, and I’d like to believe that the worst of this experience is now done and out of the way.
Yet the life lesson I learned in this experience is that “stubbornness” can be good. It can empower me to stick with and stand by my true self.
With Taurus intercepted in my 9th house of international travel, higher learning, philosophy, and belief, that places Aries on the front cusp of the house and has Gemini closing out the house. It may seem strange, but the message I learned is to stick with the truth of who I know myself to be, trust my actions, and think about what benefit(s) may be available to me in staying where I am or sticking with what I’ve got. This is how I can begin to develop confidence in my ability to provide for myself and my life, and overcome what has been one of my biggest life fears – that I am not able to take care of myself, that I need to depend on others to bail me out. I’ve always fought to maintain some semblance of autonomy and independence in my life with that intention rooted in my fear of being dependent on others for my ‘survival’. In the past, I’ve often cut ties with resources and relationships that could assist me in supporting myself, just to make my point that I could “make it on my own”.
When I embrace the fact that I am capable and that I know more than I realize – when I choose to believe in myself – I also find that being of service to others is easier standing in a place of interdependence rather than dependence or stark independence. The in-order-to goes away, the fear of being obligated to or controlled by disappears, and joy and confidence are present.
That’s not to say that I should never change, nor is it to say that I should suddenly deny that I have four planetary influences in Scorpio so I should never seek out ways to transform things. But it does give me another perspective to reference when I get that urge to “destroy” and start again.
To understand the influence of Taurus upon you and your life, check out the “Taurus and You” section in the Life By Soul Taurus 2011 Newsletter – http://eepurl.com/dF_fA . You may also want to find out exactly where Taurus falls in your chart. Go to www.lifebysoul.com/services to check out “the Know Thyself” package.
Enjoy the week everyone. Until next post…
Light, Love, and Blessings,
Grace
