The Sun entered Gemini at 2:22a yesterday, bringing with it its quick and agile mental energy, its childlike wonder, and its love of communication and knowledge in all its forms.
Gemini is the origin energy of “why children”. You know – the ones who have insatiable curiosity about pretty much anything and everything around them. Gemini is the primary mental energy of the Zodiac, and it is driven by ideas and knowledge and the communication of them.
My astrological midheaven is in Gemini. In its position on the 10th house cusp (the highest, most exposed point of one’s astrological chart), Gemini represents my most public and professional identity. It’s what people tend to believe about me based on their outward observations of me. It’s often around this time of year that I’m thinking about my career and professional role(s) and my public or outward persona. I find myself wondering how I occur to others and what I want to build or change about my outward image.
Right now, I find that it’s not so much my outward appearance that’s an issue for me (though some wardrobe adjustments are on the horizon). It’s more about the clarity of my identity in and for the world. The Gemini influence has me show up as someone who’s all over the place, which is a correct assessment to a degree…but it’s not entirely accurate.
I’ve had many different professional roles – teacher, choreographer, sales associate, customer service representative, office admin, performer, athlete, artist, writer, etc. The list could go on for a while. I’ve always enjoyed learning new roles, having new challenges. If I’m in one role for too long, I get bored and restless and then I’m eager move on to something new and different to keep my mind moving and growing.
One perpetual issue I’ve had with ‘my identity’ through my Gemini midheaven is actually choosing a public or professional identity – choosing a career. One of the frustrations I’ve carried through my life until recently is that I felt I had to choose only one – that it was the “responsible” thing to do to place a title upon myself for everyone else to know who I am and what I do in the world. Yet I love being an astrologer-numerologist-intuitive, I love being a writer, I love being an athlete, I love being an artist, I love being a teacher. I even love being a customer service representative. How do I choose which one I am?
It’s taken me a long time to accept that I may never be able to choose just one!
My inner child likes to take on new identities in the world. It likes to see what it can become. I like to see how many different roles I can take on and accomplish successfully (or at least competently) in the world. I’ve come to think of it as ‘inner child role play’ – “dress up” of sorts with my professional identity.
That said, I’ve noticed that people are challenged by the fact that I’ve had and continue to have so many different public roles. They can’t clearly define me, so they rarely give me honest consideration in my workplaces. That is, until my experience begins to show itself, which brings up another perpetual challenge for me.
Having a Gemini midheaven, people tend to think I am younger than I am both in appearance and in behavior. In addition to my panoramic work experience, people also tend to not take me seriously because of their conditions, judgments, or perceptions of my age, or of age in general. It shocks many people when I actually have wisdom to offer, or when I am serious and focused about something – they don’t expect it of me. Yet, the more they speak with me, the more they realize that I do know more and have more to offer than my appearance entails. They begin to learn that I have a very serious nature and a great deal of wisdom to offer, and often they have a difficult time reconciling my inner truth with my outer persona. In their minds, who I appear to be and who I am just don’t match up!
Showing up outwardly as I truly am inwardly is what I have chosen to focus on as my latest opportuinity for personal growth and development on my life’s journey. I’m ready to be seen as I truly am.
In beginning that process, I’ve come to recognize that I am always going to be someone different to different people, and I now actually like that idea. I’ve also come to reconcile with myself that I may never be able to define myself as having only one public role. It’s taken a long time, and I’m finally okay with the fact that I am someone with multiple public roles and with many more levels to my persona than others may get at first glance. I like that someone in my life knows me as an astrologer, while someone else knows me as a teacher, while someone else knows me as an artist. I love that I have been blessed to be capable in these various roles and that I have been able to contribute to the lives of others through them. I love that it will continue as long as I choose to let it continue. I love that I have begun to embrace my inner child.
I share all of this because I encourage you to ask yourself:
- Where does your inner child show up in your life?
- In which area of your life do you have multiple interests or “multiple personalities”?
- Do you have an area of your life where you are experiencing an “identity crisis”?
- Where in your life do you find you simply cannot choose just one thing?
- And are you (or can you be) okay with the fact that you are multi-faceted in that area (or those areas) of your life?
If you’re not sure where your inner child plays out in your life, in this month’s Life By Soul Gemini newsletter, there is a section called Gemini and You”. Here’s a link to the newsletter: http://eepurl.com/dGhRg . This may assist you in finding out where your inner child makes its place in your life. You may also want to see where Mercury (the planetary ruler of Gemini) is placed in your astrological chart. You can apply the “Gemini and You” descriptions to Mercury as well to get a full picture of your inner child and its wonderful role in your life’s journey (just sub out Gemini for Mercury in the description). More on Mercury later in the month…
Enjoy the week! Until next post…
~ Light, Love, and Blessings,
Grace
